Epiphany

It is amazing to me how a 2-year-old can put life into perspective sometimes.

(Oldish pic, but still a fav)

This is how he reminded me of what really should matter to me:

I was running around late this morning like a chicken with my head cut off. I went out to start my car, but brought my keys back inside with me so I could lock my car doors while it was running. (I have a keyless start, so I don't need to leave my keys in the ignition).

Anyway, so I am finally ready to leave, the kids are all bundled, and I realize that I can't find my keys. So now I am running around swearing up and down that I couldn't find my effing keys, and saying "Oh my gosh I am going to cry because I am late!!" and the whole time, my son is following me around saying "Mommy! Wait! Mommy!" So finally I stop and say, "What Mikey?! Mommy's late and I can't find my keys!!" and he responds, "Mommy, I found them!" he points to my back pocket and reaches up to grab them and hands them to me.

Then he says, "Now you don't have to cry mommy."

That made my eyes tear up. I just stopped and dropped down to his level and said, "thank you baby..." and squezed him and kissed him.

My appointment was not important at that point, all that mattered was my little girl in my left arm, and the little boy that I was squeezing with my right arm.

My babies are so precious, and even if it takes me feeling like a complete idiot for overreacting, I will always treasure these little reminders of how much they mean to me. :)

So make sure you all take time to remember what really is important in your life.

Love!!

-B

PS: its theses fools wedding day today. Due to money I cannot attend (and I was even a bridesmaid!!) I love you Sarah and Jeff!!

Christmas Report!!

Okay, so basically I did pretty darn well for Christmas this year. I usually spoil everyone else, but couldn't this year because of my HUGE paycut. I did get everyone out here covered, but not to the extent that I usually do...so that's sad. Instead of being sad though, I am going to get excited about what I got for Christmas again and tell you!! (Even two out of 4 of the things on my "Oh Honey!" sidebar!)


FINALLY Got Laila. I have been using the sample tubes from Nordstrom for over a month. This morning I actually got to spray myself...I can't even tell you how excited I was at 6am to smell so amazing!!!







My Blackberry Tour. My friend Jessica said, "You got ANOTHER phone?!" I probably didn't need a new one. Seriously though, anyone who knows me would agree that the fact that I had my Curve for 2 years is like a record for me. So anyway...it was between this and the HTC version of the Droid, but I need HTC to work out the kinks...so in 2 years when it's upgrade time again I will probably get that...or not because Im addicted to Crackberries.

Gift Certificate for a hot stone massage, pedicure and eyebrow waxing courtesy of my hubby. :) He's good at this stuff.

My mom sent us $50 and we went to a family dinner, My in-laws got me Laila Parfum (the other one is Eau de Parfum, so I got 2!), a visa gift card (love them), 2 Gift cards for restaurants in the area, one being a steak house that I have heard is incredible, gas cards (yesss), A couple necklaces, one finally being my cross (!!!), some earrings (jewelry was courtesy of hubby...he's so smart that he followed behind me in the store and was snapping pics of the things I wanted on his camera phone and went back and bought it all...), Pureology conditioner and Bath and body works foot scrub in my stocking. woohoo! It was awesome, and I am not even positive that I remembered everything...but thank you everyone!!

Christmas eve was spent with my sister and her family, prime rib deliciousness!! Christmas day was spent with my in-laws, and my sister in law came over with her family. Overall it was pretty fun! I miss my Cali fam like crazy, but the people here made it the best it could possibly be!!

Okay, your turn!! Tell me what you got, or leave a link to your blog!!

Love!!!

-B

PS Less than 3 weeks until I go back to school!! eeeeee!

Okay...so when exactly will it stop sucking??

I will always remember sitting on the couch in the den while my bff got ready for school...he'd shlep out of his room at about what 6:45 ish? He'd walk by "Whats up" and give me a high five...he always smelled AMAZING of course (Right Liques?). Then go out for his morning cigarette. It's so funny how little things like that stick out in my memory.

Other random things that stick out:

He loved Ghetto Car so. Crooked antenna and all.
I have never heard "Only Time" by Enya until September 2001. Then I heard it. A lot. And it was loud.
He loved Honey Bunches of Oats...I actually got in trouble for finishing his box once. Oops.
He also liked the canned Tamales from the 99 cent store...they were actually really good!
I can't remember a day he didn't wear black...but he looked good in it, so I cant say anything. Ha
He was a master cat trainer...it.was.AMAZING.
He loved the surround sound (THX) noise. I had never heard that so many times before I met Nick. I also never heard it so loud. Ha.
He loved me more than he loved Angelique. hahahahah. I was the favorite. :-) (This is a joke people!!)


Its been 7 years today...it still hasn't gotten easier dude. I still miss you Nick! Love you!!

Mark, Gina, Liques, Brandon, Ronnie...love you guys!!

Okay, so I changed my mind. Again.

"The future belongs to those who believe in the beauty of their dreams" - Eleanor Roosevelt

I'm hoping that includes those who have changed their minds a million times. But look, I am 23. Thats my job - get over it. Hehe.

Okay so far my desired career path has been this: Teacher -> Spanish Teacher -> Aviation Management Major -> Pilot -> Aviation Management -> Spanish Teacher -> Psychology Teacher -> High School Counselor -> ??????? -> Air Traffic Controller -> Now.

So basically I have always either wanted a job in aviation (which is a DUH moment if you've ever read my blog), or a job where I get to help people (teacher/counselor). Aviation means questioning your morals at times, which is really hard for me to do. It also involves sales, which I hate, and shmoozing, which I hate even more. Plus the industry is dead at a time where I need to be on a path to making a decent income for my family, and it's just not happening right now.

Teaching...If I were to be a teacher, I would want to be a damn good one. That would mean me teaching something I am good at and something I am interested in. The only things were Spanish - which I have forgotten a lot of - or Psychology. Unfortunately I'd be hard pressed to find a high school that offers a psychology program, and getting my masters is not in the cards for me anymore. I just dont have time.

You have to have a masters to be a high school counselor...so there goes that.

After some soul searching, I realized what is important to me in a job. That is helping people. Whether it's making their experience better, making them feel more comfortable, teaching them something. Whatever it may be it is in my nature to help people...I actually CARE about people. I can see beyond the surface and know when something isn't right - and when I do, I always want to try to fix it. If I can make decent money doing it, and finish the program in less than 3 years then I am all over it.

I've found that calling. I know what I want to do. I want it so badly that I am not even going to reveal what it is I want to do, for fear of having to tell you that I wasn't accepted into the school. Another indicator to me of how right this is for me is that I can't even apply to the school for another semester, I have to backtrack and take a bunch of lower division courses again, and I am totally okay with that! (Usually I am an instant gratification kind of person...if I have to backtrack or am expected to be patient and wait to do something I won't do it).

I know I have 3 followers, but if you read this...PLEASE send me some good vibes. I need it. It's going to be a bit of a journey to even get into the school - let alone COMPLETE the school. So wish me luck!!

-B

My Must Have Product of the Moment.

Okay, so normally I'm not all about lip products. I kiss my kids too much, or the wind blows and gets my hair caught in my lipgloss...any excuse I can find to not wear it, even though I think it totally completes a look, and in my opinion is part of the simple "I'm running late no time for a full face of make-up" look. (In addition to mascara, bronzer and blush for me!)

So anyway...now that I am in Minnesota, and it is cold, I have no choice but to wear something on my lips. My husband happened to have a tube of regular Burt's Bees chapstick, and I actually really liked it. (Which is weird, because I havent found a chapstick I actually like.)

I decided to go to Target and pick some up and then found THIS:::

I absolutely love it. Its a Lip Shimmer but since it is Burt's Bees it has the protective and healing qualities of a chapstick...and way easier than putting chapstick on under lipstick or lipgloss if you're lazy like me :). My shade is Watermelon, although since it is winter, I am thinking of going a touch darker for the season.

At any rate, I love it so much that I want to tell everyone about it! So go try it and let me know how you like it! Or if you have it and love it...vouge for me people!!

That's all I have for now.

Love!!

-B