"An unexpected relationship will become permanent..."

...says my P.F. Chang's fortune cookie that I got the first week we started dating. Usually I just throw those things out...and I had forgotten I had this one until I was cleaning out my wallet for something, and it made me think...

Wouldn't it be so nice if the answers to life's problems came from a mediocre-flavored cookie served to you at the end of a meal? I think so.

The hard truth is, relationships, along with many of life's difficulties and challenges, are confusing and hard and frustrated. Worst of all, you can't Google the answers to your problems.

For those who are religious, they say that God does not put onto us more than we can handle, and that we are to "give" our problems to Him, and trust that He will guide you through the trials.

"I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world." -John 16:33

(One of many verses along these lines.)

Now if only there were an instruction manual on how to go about doing that, and how I can apply it!

My new year's resolution is to make an effort everyday to give my problems to the Lord. To not put them onto others to be resolved, to not try to take them on myself, and to not try to change them myself.

"God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change; courage to change the things I can; and wisdom to know the difference."

Please?!

Happy New Year to all of you. May 2011 be your best year yet...and mine...God willing. :)

This is my favorite place on you...

(weheartit)

I love laying on your shoulder. There isnt a time I fall asleep more easily.

You make me feel safe. You make me feel loved when you turn to me and kiss my forehead before drifting off to sleep.

It's the little things you do that make me love you more and more every day.

Our relationship is so new. And I am so excited for the next thing that you will do to prove to me that it is possible to love you more.

There's so much time for us to fall even more in love. I can't wait.

Thank you for being the one to prove to me that all men aren't the same.

Thank you for being proud that I am your girl.

Thank you for holding me when I cry.

For being my backbone when I am weak.

Thank you for loving my children.

For supporting me as a mommy when times get tough with them.

For reminding me that there is no perfect mom, and that I really am doing the best that I can...because it's really easy to forget that sometimes.

Every night you hold me, every kiss I get, every "I love you" said is better than the last.

Thank you for loving me for who I am, not who you want me to be or who you think I should be.

I hope we are continually able to redefine love when the new relationship chills wear off.

That when we are in a dark tunnel that we fight until we get to the light at the end.

Thank you for giving to me as much as you take from me.

For going out of your way for me, as I do for you.

For being as thoughtful about things as I am for you.

You truly are one of a kind.

I hope you know just how amazing you are.

<3>

Y-E-S

(this is the edited version...I feel it more appropriate...but by all means...look on youtube for the original!)

No I don't care if you change your opinion of me because I support gay marriage. Your loss. :)

October 20th, ROCK THE PURPLE...FOR THIS CAUSE.

You make me feel...like I'm living a...teenage dream

So...being that I am 24 with one failed marriage under my belt already, I felt my odds of finding love were bleak because of:

a) my 2 kids (which I adore, but some guys do not - and those guys are NOT worth my time)

-or-

b) I would not be able to let someone in for a long time

Incorrect.

I just want to share a little excerpt from a conversation my boyfriend and I were having the other day. I was having a rough day and one of those, "I don't understand how it's possible for you to love me as much as you do." insecurity moments...because he's badass, sometimes I wonder if he is for real. I'm so lucky as a mommy with 2 kids to have someone who loves my kids as much as he loves me.

Alright...here's the quote.

"I love that everytime I tell you that I love you, I still get knots in my stomach as if it is the first time I'm saying it to you."

::sigh::

I thought boys like him only existed in chick flicks.

He's real. He's awesome. He's mine. <3

-B

1,2,3 Not only you and me...

K, I love that song, and I couldnt resist.

I stole this from Meredith over at http://flashpasteurized.blogspot.com/ (go read her blog...it's always good stuff :-)) Thanks for helping me to pass the time lady!!

3 names i go by
1. Britters
2. Fudge

3. Mommy

3 jobs i have had
1. Aircraft Charter Coordinator
2. Flight Support Coordinator (Also Aviation)
3. In-N-Out (perfect teenager job)

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3 places i have lived
1. San Diego, California

2. Los Angeles, California

3. Dallas, Texas <3<3
***
3 tv shows i watch
1. The Real Housewives of Orange County (when it's on)

2. Two and a Half Men

3. The Big Bang Theory
***

3 places i would like to visit
1. Hawaii

2. Bali
3. Italy
***

3 fave retro tv shows
1. Fresh Prince of Bel Air
2. Roseanne
3. Match Game

3 fave dishes

1. My homemade Lasagna

2. Steak and Baked Potato

3. Steak Picado (and I've only had it 3 times)

---

3 things i am looking forward to
1. Going home in 3 weeks to visit!!!!

2. My little sissy coming to visit me for 3 weeks!!!!

3. Turning in my nursing application :-)

Correct me if I am wrong...

...but aren't I supposed to be wearing shorts in May? Not walking out to my car on Saturday morning and seeing this in the front yard?

{Yes, that would be snow}


Is California the only state (well maybe Florida) where shorts are necessary in May? I mean SHEESH! Luckily I am going home to visit in a little less than a month. EEEEEEEK!

The best part, is that my little sister doesn't know. We're surprising her for her elementary school graduation :)

Cant wait!!! :-)

First though, gotta get through finals this week. Chemistry is the one I am nervous about. Wish me luck!!

-B

So far, its still pretty brown, but I am realizing that while the grass may not be greener on the other side, there is a way to take it upon yourself to nurture it, help it grow, and make it greener.

This new chapter in my life has by far been the hardest page to turn. With many critics yelling into my ears from all angles, I have to look within myself to find the strength I need to get through this alone, because no one will be able to give me strength more than me.

With the friends who have shown their faces in my time of need by my side, holding my hand and giving me a shoulder to cry on, and being my sounding board to bounce off of, I will get through this.

I will not fall victim to my comfort zone, and I will not succomb to the pressures of those who I thought were my friends but have proven otherwise.

Oh yeah, and I am going to pray a lot. :)

<3>

-B

Finally, Something to blog about!

Presenting:

Diary of the Make-Up Obsessed!

http://eyebrowjunkie.blogspot.com/

She's having an awesome giveaway over at her page!! You should become a follower anyway, it's just a fun page to be a follower of...but now you can also follow the rules and enter yourself in the contest!!



Enjoy All!!!

I forgot to tighten my bra straps after wearing my strap perfect...

...and they keep falling off of my shoulders. FML.

I always have good words of wisdome for friends. I never try to sway someone's opinion one way or another, but I am pretty good at giving someone an objective opinion to any situation. ::Insert chuckles about Mike from Jersey Shore::::GTL!::

So my question, to myself, and anyone else like me...WHY CAN'T I EVER HELP MYSELF?!

I am trying to step outside of my situation ::giggle:: and be objective, and here's how it is actually helping...

<3 I am being completely honest with myself and anyone I talk to about this.
<3 I know that some of the things I am feeling and thinking are right and completely justified
<3 I know that some of the things that I am feeling and thinking are wrong.

...but I still don't know what to do... Like when I posted on my facebook about "The grass on the other side ever staying greener." No one seemed to think that it does, but I can't imagine that it's any worse on the other side in some situations...now to determine whether I want to tend to the grass on the side I am on, or jump the fence, pull the weeds, and plant fresh grass and make that greener...

I mean I believe you create your own happiness...so now, I just have to make a decision.

Wish me luck.

Love!
-Brit

PS: Life, feel free to ease up on me...but only if you want to.

I havent posted in eleventy billion years!/Random Review

Weather in Minnesota: Current: 28, foggy. Forecasted: 34, snow showers
Weather at home: Current 38, sunny (it's also 6:45 am there). Forecasted: 63, Mostly sunny.

I have missed my favorite blogs so...

Now that I am up to date on Tough Crowd, MODG, Made You Blush, (flash) pasteurized, and blicious, etc. (just go see my sidebar, they're all good reads, so go...read them.)

Basically, I went back to school {eeeeee!!] on the 11th, and it is amazing how much I feel at home when I am at school. I love it so much, even though I am taking Chemistry. FML. But that's okay. Im at school...I don't even care what it's for.

I was so excited that on the day before school started I was walking around the house with my backpack on. Haha, Yes I know that might qualify me as a loser, but nonetheless.

{My pack-pack -as my little sis used to call it}

{Its so cool, that I had to take picture of it with my phone because I couldn't find one online!}

But anyway, I am taking Chem and Sociology. This summer I am trying to take one more science class, then I get to apply for my major. I'm so excited, but have so much anxiety about not getting in!

Anywho, as much as I love/miss blogging I have no time anymore! I want to do it as much as I can to gain followers and become a follower and have a place for an outlet, but 2 jobs, school, studying for school, and 2 kids leave me little time.

I hope everyone is doing well!!

Love!

-B

PS - Short random review, because I am so excited. I love having curly hair...but my hair has always been such a bitch to curl. BUT I found a product that actually helps my curls form and stay in, and it smells good!

Its Kenra Thermal Styling spray. I love it. It works for me and my stubborn hair! (Stubborn to stay curled at least!) It's also a thermal protectant, so it's good for straightening your hair too! I got it at Ulta. :)

B's Random Review

Okay, so I have decided to randomly tell you guys when I find a product that I love. I actually have a lot on the list, so I will have to figure out some sort of pattern of how/when to put them up so that I don't run out of things too quickly. Haha.




SO obvs my first post was about that Burt's Bee's tinted chapstick that i LOOOVE.




Next in line, the Motorola version of the Droid.


Let me start by saying that this will be the Valley Girl version of a review, I don't claim to be a electronics nerd, I'll leave that technical stuff to CNet, thanks.


so THE DROID!

(Cnet.com)

Okay, so I know it isn't much to look at, which is why I opted for the Blackberry Tour at first. After I heard of all its capabilities, I took the plunge and traded it in for the Droid. The good news is, you can make it decently cute by putting on a snap-on case; mine looks more like this now:

It is much more bearable to look at with the cute pink case on it :)






Okay so my instant thoughts were: this is SO similar to the iPhone, but is better because of the full keyboard. It also seems to have a lot of similar apps available as the iPhone. (Including Yelp, the Level, YouTube, Shazam, Twitter applications, various bar code scanners, email, etc.)

The touch screen is actually SUPER-nicely calibrated, and makes it easy to type on the touch screen, which was my biggest concern coming to this phone from the Blackberry.

My favorite apps on MY Droid are:
*Voice Guided turn-by-turn navigation, no additional cost.
*Movie soundboard of The Hangover
*Bar Code Scanner
*Yelp
*Flixter Movies app (shows closest theaters, the times listed under the movies and a direct link to the movie trailer which plays immediately and in nice quality considering it's a phone)
*A ringtone maker where you can upload songs onto your phone, and make ringtones out of them using this app (on your phone...not the computer)
*TFLN (Texts from last night)
*FMylife
*Random Chuck Norris facts
**The apps listed above that the iPhone also has are all amazing too!**

Its has all the normal things a phone these days does; Camera, Video Camera, Internet (I love the internet on this phone)

So all in all, I DO miss my blackberry for the BBM, but the Droid is a pretty good pick I say. No problems with it yet...so I recommend it if you're thinking about buying it!!

LOVE!
-B

ps School starts Monday - I.Am.So.Stoked!!! Ive been out of school since December 06!

Epiphany

It is amazing to me how a 2-year-old can put life into perspective sometimes.

(Oldish pic, but still a fav)

This is how he reminded me of what really should matter to me:

I was running around late this morning like a chicken with my head cut off. I went out to start my car, but brought my keys back inside with me so I could lock my car doors while it was running. (I have a keyless start, so I don't need to leave my keys in the ignition).

Anyway, so I am finally ready to leave, the kids are all bundled, and I realize that I can't find my keys. So now I am running around swearing up and down that I couldn't find my effing keys, and saying "Oh my gosh I am going to cry because I am late!!" and the whole time, my son is following me around saying "Mommy! Wait! Mommy!" So finally I stop and say, "What Mikey?! Mommy's late and I can't find my keys!!" and he responds, "Mommy, I found them!" he points to my back pocket and reaches up to grab them and hands them to me.

Then he says, "Now you don't have to cry mommy."

That made my eyes tear up. I just stopped and dropped down to his level and said, "thank you baby..." and squezed him and kissed him.

My appointment was not important at that point, all that mattered was my little girl in my left arm, and the little boy that I was squeezing with my right arm.

My babies are so precious, and even if it takes me feeling like a complete idiot for overreacting, I will always treasure these little reminders of how much they mean to me. :)

So make sure you all take time to remember what really is important in your life.

Love!!

-B

PS: its theses fools wedding day today. Due to money I cannot attend (and I was even a bridesmaid!!) I love you Sarah and Jeff!!

Christmas Report!!

Okay, so basically I did pretty darn well for Christmas this year. I usually spoil everyone else, but couldn't this year because of my HUGE paycut. I did get everyone out here covered, but not to the extent that I usually do...so that's sad. Instead of being sad though, I am going to get excited about what I got for Christmas again and tell you!! (Even two out of 4 of the things on my "Oh Honey!" sidebar!)


FINALLY Got Laila. I have been using the sample tubes from Nordstrom for over a month. This morning I actually got to spray myself...I can't even tell you how excited I was at 6am to smell so amazing!!!







My Blackberry Tour. My friend Jessica said, "You got ANOTHER phone?!" I probably didn't need a new one. Seriously though, anyone who knows me would agree that the fact that I had my Curve for 2 years is like a record for me. So anyway...it was between this and the HTC version of the Droid, but I need HTC to work out the kinks...so in 2 years when it's upgrade time again I will probably get that...or not because Im addicted to Crackberries.

Gift Certificate for a hot stone massage, pedicure and eyebrow waxing courtesy of my hubby. :) He's good at this stuff.

My mom sent us $50 and we went to a family dinner, My in-laws got me Laila Parfum (the other one is Eau de Parfum, so I got 2!), a visa gift card (love them), 2 Gift cards for restaurants in the area, one being a steak house that I have heard is incredible, gas cards (yesss), A couple necklaces, one finally being my cross (!!!), some earrings (jewelry was courtesy of hubby...he's so smart that he followed behind me in the store and was snapping pics of the things I wanted on his camera phone and went back and bought it all...), Pureology conditioner and Bath and body works foot scrub in my stocking. woohoo! It was awesome, and I am not even positive that I remembered everything...but thank you everyone!!

Christmas eve was spent with my sister and her family, prime rib deliciousness!! Christmas day was spent with my in-laws, and my sister in law came over with her family. Overall it was pretty fun! I miss my Cali fam like crazy, but the people here made it the best it could possibly be!!

Okay, your turn!! Tell me what you got, or leave a link to your blog!!

Love!!!

-B

PS Less than 3 weeks until I go back to school!! eeeeee!

Okay...so when exactly will it stop sucking??

I will always remember sitting on the couch in the den while my bff got ready for school...he'd shlep out of his room at about what 6:45 ish? He'd walk by "Whats up" and give me a high five...he always smelled AMAZING of course (Right Liques?). Then go out for his morning cigarette. It's so funny how little things like that stick out in my memory.

Other random things that stick out:

He loved Ghetto Car so. Crooked antenna and all.
I have never heard "Only Time" by Enya until September 2001. Then I heard it. A lot. And it was loud.
He loved Honey Bunches of Oats...I actually got in trouble for finishing his box once. Oops.
He also liked the canned Tamales from the 99 cent store...they were actually really good!
I can't remember a day he didn't wear black...but he looked good in it, so I cant say anything. Ha
He was a master cat trainer...it.was.AMAZING.
He loved the surround sound (THX) noise. I had never heard that so many times before I met Nick. I also never heard it so loud. Ha.
He loved me more than he loved Angelique. hahahahah. I was the favorite. :-) (This is a joke people!!)


Its been 7 years today...it still hasn't gotten easier dude. I still miss you Nick! Love you!!

Mark, Gina, Liques, Brandon, Ronnie...love you guys!!

Okay, so I changed my mind. Again.

"The future belongs to those who believe in the beauty of their dreams" - Eleanor Roosevelt

I'm hoping that includes those who have changed their minds a million times. But look, I am 23. Thats my job - get over it. Hehe.

Okay so far my desired career path has been this: Teacher -> Spanish Teacher -> Aviation Management Major -> Pilot -> Aviation Management -> Spanish Teacher -> Psychology Teacher -> High School Counselor -> ??????? -> Air Traffic Controller -> Now.

So basically I have always either wanted a job in aviation (which is a DUH moment if you've ever read my blog), or a job where I get to help people (teacher/counselor). Aviation means questioning your morals at times, which is really hard for me to do. It also involves sales, which I hate, and shmoozing, which I hate even more. Plus the industry is dead at a time where I need to be on a path to making a decent income for my family, and it's just not happening right now.

Teaching...If I were to be a teacher, I would want to be a damn good one. That would mean me teaching something I am good at and something I am interested in. The only things were Spanish - which I have forgotten a lot of - or Psychology. Unfortunately I'd be hard pressed to find a high school that offers a psychology program, and getting my masters is not in the cards for me anymore. I just dont have time.

You have to have a masters to be a high school counselor...so there goes that.

After some soul searching, I realized what is important to me in a job. That is helping people. Whether it's making their experience better, making them feel more comfortable, teaching them something. Whatever it may be it is in my nature to help people...I actually CARE about people. I can see beyond the surface and know when something isn't right - and when I do, I always want to try to fix it. If I can make decent money doing it, and finish the program in less than 3 years then I am all over it.

I've found that calling. I know what I want to do. I want it so badly that I am not even going to reveal what it is I want to do, for fear of having to tell you that I wasn't accepted into the school. Another indicator to me of how right this is for me is that I can't even apply to the school for another semester, I have to backtrack and take a bunch of lower division courses again, and I am totally okay with that! (Usually I am an instant gratification kind of person...if I have to backtrack or am expected to be patient and wait to do something I won't do it).

I know I have 3 followers, but if you read this...PLEASE send me some good vibes. I need it. It's going to be a bit of a journey to even get into the school - let alone COMPLETE the school. So wish me luck!!

-B

My Must Have Product of the Moment.

Okay, so normally I'm not all about lip products. I kiss my kids too much, or the wind blows and gets my hair caught in my lipgloss...any excuse I can find to not wear it, even though I think it totally completes a look, and in my opinion is part of the simple "I'm running late no time for a full face of make-up" look. (In addition to mascara, bronzer and blush for me!)

So anyway...now that I am in Minnesota, and it is cold, I have no choice but to wear something on my lips. My husband happened to have a tube of regular Burt's Bees chapstick, and I actually really liked it. (Which is weird, because I havent found a chapstick I actually like.)

I decided to go to Target and pick some up and then found THIS:::

I absolutely love it. Its a Lip Shimmer but since it is Burt's Bees it has the protective and healing qualities of a chapstick...and way easier than putting chapstick on under lipstick or lipgloss if you're lazy like me :). My shade is Watermelon, although since it is winter, I am thinking of going a touch darker for the season.

At any rate, I love it so much that I want to tell everyone about it! So go try it and let me know how you like it! Or if you have it and love it...vouge for me people!!

That's all I have for now.

Love!!

-B

Eff you motherfather...I just need to vent

Ha. I couldn't live with myself swearing as my post title...I'll leave that for the body of the blog.

SO. I am friends with my ex (I know, I know...but it's not like it seems, my husband, son and I have all gone to dinner with him a couple of times.) and we were talking on the phone the other day about our relationship and why it didn't work out.

side note: I asked him questions to figure out if it was me, and stuff I did wrong, so that I can improve myself for my husband...I just feel like I am too hard on him and I figured my ex was a good enough friend that he would tell me what the fuck's up so that I can better myself for my husband. WRONG

So anyway...let me preface this venting by saying that when we dated I was 20 ish and he was 33 ish...so now more of this should make sense.

The talk we had was complete bullshit. All he did was basically tell me that it was my immaturity that was why it ended. When I say immaturity, I mean like not knowing what I want to do with my life, changing my life goals constantly, overdramatizing things ever-so-slightly, you know...standard stuff you do when you're TWENTY.

So after realizing that was a waste of time, I switched to bitch-mode and was like, "Look, you were the most draining, most condescending person I was ever around, I was constantly on egg shells around you because you are so judgmental...etc etc blah de blah...so that is why I ended things with you."

His response, "What? You didn't end things, I did."

Dude, don't flatter yourself...I was a 20 year old little hottie and you were 34 and balding. Please don't act like you ended things.

So I cracked up and replied, "uhhh...no you didn't."

Then he replies, "Well, I can see it still bothers you, you're obviously getting all upset with me."

::more laughter::

Really, dude? Is that why I am married to a gorgeous man who loves me more than you are capable of loving? And why we have two beautiful children and have been together happily (with our struggles of course) for almost 3 years and married for over 1 year? Because I am upset that our relationship ended? Please build a bridge and get over yourself, because last time I checked, youre the 30-something that still isn't married. Thanks.

Now, normally it is not in my veins to be this big of a bitch, but his arrogance totally called for "Bitchney" to unmask herself.

Not only that, when I told him of my aspirations to be an air traffic controller he said {I just dont see you doing that, I know a lot of controllers and you just don't have that personality} Thanks asshole.

Then he said "Well I am just trying to be a real friend, not one of your other friends that pushes you to do something you won't succeed in!...You don't think I want you to be successful? I do! But I want you to avoid wasting your time, so that's why I am telling you this."

I ended the phone call shortly after that. Don't think we'll be chatting much anytime soon.

So kids, the moral of the story is...don't surround yourself with anyone that is negative. Or retarded for that matter. Because I have many friends, guys and girls, that I have never have confrontations like this with...

Okay, thats all for my bitching for now...

LOVE!!!
-B

I don't get it.

I just have one question. One thought for the day.

Why do bad things happen to some of the greatest people?

Furthermore, why do amazing things happen

to those who surely don't deserve it?

I know everything happens for a reason,

but why must there be a dark tunnel and

the light at the very end of it?

And why does the light sometimes

take so long to reach?

I guess I will have to just stay positive!!

What else can I really do?

"Reality is the mirror of your thoughts. Choose well what you put in front of the mirror."

-Unknown

I wouldn't even take time to read this.

"For once you have tasted flight you will walk the earth with your eyes turned skywards, for there you have been and there you will long to return." Leonardo Da Vinci

(I just watched a plane like this take off..it was AMAZING. Thanks airliners.net)

So. Update from last post. I started a new job. It's not in aviation. Boo!

BUT I surprisingly like it a lot. It's an awesome company, they treat their employees well, have amazing benefits, and most employees there are lifers, which says a lot... :-)

My second job IS in aviation , and it is AMAZING. It sucks being away from the hubby and kiddos every other weekend, but I have to tell you - its almost therapeutic being here and getting to watch planes take off. Now, for the most part I don't see that many jets...but the ones that I do are amazing to watch take off. I even love listening to the controller talk to the planes on the ground and in the air! Ugh..I need to stop. It's making me sound like a loser!

People who arent in aviation don't understand how hard it is to get out of the industry ..so that fact that my job IS outside the industry, you would think I would be relieved that I was able to get out!! And I am...Monday through Friday. It is so nice not having to work 6-2 or 2-10, or 9-5, but then you have to be on call once a week and work holidays and weekends. But then I get here on weekends, and it makes me hate my first job all over again.

Here is what makes me a crazy person:

Regular job:

-No Crazy Hours

-No on Call

-No Shmoozing people

-No lying to passenger's wives about the women their husbands are flying with

-No weekends (for the most part)

-No holiday work

-Amazing benefits

-6k/year toward tuition

-They take care of and show constant appreciation for their people.

My Aviation Jobs:

-Crap hours, with overtime if a plane is leaving early or coming in late

-On calls

-Holidays

-Having to cover for shady, lying passengers

-I have only worked for one company that really acknowedged my hard work and love for the job (Thank you MB)

-Unless you work for a company like Boeing or Bombardier (which I used to) you ain't gettin no tuition reimbersement

It all makes sense on paper...why cant I get it through my head?!

That's it for my rants... :)

-B

PS. I apply for Air Traffic Controller in January. We'll see how that goes. :)

PPS There is a customer at my work that has a plane like this:

It is my goal to become their friend and go for a ride!! Can we say barrel rolls?

My Addiction

{LOVES this picture...gives aviation a girly feel... thanks to google images}

So honestly, I wish sometimes that I had a more interesting vice, or at least ones with weekly meetings I could attend to get it out of my system. I love aviation. The planes, the planning, the pilots...it is all so fascinating to me.

I could watch this movie 100,000 times and it wouldnt be enough:



Ever since I was 18 I have worked in corporate aviation (that's private jets for those not up to par with Aviation jargon). The planes look more like this as opposed to airlines:



I did a 4 month stint working for a mortgage company, and it was HORRIBLE!!! Now that I am back in Minnesota I am yet again having a hard time finding an aviation job, because the industry as a whole is slow...and as it is there are few aviation jobs here. There are corporate flight departments like Target, 3M, Best Buy, General Mills, etc. and I would L-O-V-E to have a job working for a company like that...but it's just not happening for me.

Next week I start a non-aviation job. It is for an amazing company...but it selfish and ungrateful that I am not even willing to pretend to be excited to work there? I should be grateful to have even found a job.

Yet I cannot pretend I am not crushed that it isn't aviation...::sigh::

"If you do what you love for a living, you will never work a day in your life."
-Glen (My stepdad)

I wholeheartedly believe that quote. And I guess its the reason I want nothing to do with anything outside aviation.

Its seriously a disease. Once you're in...you're STUCK.

I refuse to give up though, so wish me luck in my continued search!!

-B