"An unexpected relationship will become permanent..."

...says my P.F. Chang's fortune cookie that I got the first week we started dating. Usually I just throw those things out...and I had forgotten I had this one until I was cleaning out my wallet for something, and it made me think...

Wouldn't it be so nice if the answers to life's problems came from a mediocre-flavored cookie served to you at the end of a meal? I think so.

The hard truth is, relationships, along with many of life's difficulties and challenges, are confusing and hard and frustrated. Worst of all, you can't Google the answers to your problems.

For those who are religious, they say that God does not put onto us more than we can handle, and that we are to "give" our problems to Him, and trust that He will guide you through the trials.

"I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world." -John 16:33

(One of many verses along these lines.)

Now if only there were an instruction manual on how to go about doing that, and how I can apply it!

My new year's resolution is to make an effort everyday to give my problems to the Lord. To not put them onto others to be resolved, to not try to take them on myself, and to not try to change them myself.

"God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change; courage to change the things I can; and wisdom to know the difference."

Please?!

Happy New Year to all of you. May 2011 be your best year yet...and mine...God willing. :)

This is my favorite place on you...

(weheartit)

I love laying on your shoulder. There isnt a time I fall asleep more easily.

You make me feel safe. You make me feel loved when you turn to me and kiss my forehead before drifting off to sleep.

It's the little things you do that make me love you more and more every day.

Our relationship is so new. And I am so excited for the next thing that you will do to prove to me that it is possible to love you more.

There's so much time for us to fall even more in love. I can't wait.

Thank you for being the one to prove to me that all men aren't the same.

Thank you for being proud that I am your girl.

Thank you for holding me when I cry.

For being my backbone when I am weak.

Thank you for loving my children.

For supporting me as a mommy when times get tough with them.

For reminding me that there is no perfect mom, and that I really am doing the best that I can...because it's really easy to forget that sometimes.

Every night you hold me, every kiss I get, every "I love you" said is better than the last.

Thank you for loving me for who I am, not who you want me to be or who you think I should be.

I hope we are continually able to redefine love when the new relationship chills wear off.

That when we are in a dark tunnel that we fight until we get to the light at the end.

Thank you for giving to me as much as you take from me.

For going out of your way for me, as I do for you.

For being as thoughtful about things as I am for you.

You truly are one of a kind.

I hope you know just how amazing you are.

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Y-E-S

(this is the edited version...I feel it more appropriate...but by all means...look on youtube for the original!)

No I don't care if you change your opinion of me because I support gay marriage. Your loss. :)

October 20th, ROCK THE PURPLE...FOR THIS CAUSE.

You make me feel...like I'm living a...teenage dream

So...being that I am 24 with one failed marriage under my belt already, I felt my odds of finding love were bleak because of:

a) my 2 kids (which I adore, but some guys do not - and those guys are NOT worth my time)

-or-

b) I would not be able to let someone in for a long time

Incorrect.

I just want to share a little excerpt from a conversation my boyfriend and I were having the other day. I was having a rough day and one of those, "I don't understand how it's possible for you to love me as much as you do." insecurity moments...because he's badass, sometimes I wonder if he is for real. I'm so lucky as a mommy with 2 kids to have someone who loves my kids as much as he loves me.

Alright...here's the quote.

"I love that everytime I tell you that I love you, I still get knots in my stomach as if it is the first time I'm saying it to you."

::sigh::

I thought boys like him only existed in chick flicks.

He's real. He's awesome. He's mine. <3

-B

1,2,3 Not only you and me...

K, I love that song, and I couldnt resist.

I stole this from Meredith over at http://flashpasteurized.blogspot.com/ (go read her blog...it's always good stuff :-)) Thanks for helping me to pass the time lady!!

3 names i go by
1. Britters
2. Fudge

3. Mommy

3 jobs i have had
1. Aircraft Charter Coordinator
2. Flight Support Coordinator (Also Aviation)
3. In-N-Out (perfect teenager job)

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3 places i have lived
1. San Diego, California

2. Los Angeles, California

3. Dallas, Texas <3<3
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3 tv shows i watch
1. The Real Housewives of Orange County (when it's on)

2. Two and a Half Men

3. The Big Bang Theory
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3 places i would like to visit
1. Hawaii

2. Bali
3. Italy
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3 fave retro tv shows
1. Fresh Prince of Bel Air
2. Roseanne
3. Match Game

3 fave dishes

1. My homemade Lasagna

2. Steak and Baked Potato

3. Steak Picado (and I've only had it 3 times)

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3 things i am looking forward to
1. Going home in 3 weeks to visit!!!!

2. My little sissy coming to visit me for 3 weeks!!!!

3. Turning in my nursing application :-)

Correct me if I am wrong...

...but aren't I supposed to be wearing shorts in May? Not walking out to my car on Saturday morning and seeing this in the front yard?

{Yes, that would be snow}


Is California the only state (well maybe Florida) where shorts are necessary in May? I mean SHEESH! Luckily I am going home to visit in a little less than a month. EEEEEEEK!

The best part, is that my little sister doesn't know. We're surprising her for her elementary school graduation :)

Cant wait!!! :-)

First though, gotta get through finals this week. Chemistry is the one I am nervous about. Wish me luck!!

-B

So, I'm checking out that greener grass...

So far, its still pretty brown, but I am realizing that while the grass may not be greener on the other side, there is a way to take it upon yourself to nurture it, help it grow, and make it greener.

This new chapter in my life has by far been the hardest page to turn. With many critics yelling into my ears from all angles, I have to look within myself to find the strength I need to get through this alone, because no one will be able to give me strength more than me.

With the friends who have shown their faces in my time of need by my side, holding my hand and giving me a shoulder to cry on, and being my sounding board to bounce off of, I will get through this.

I will not fall victim to my comfort zone, and I will not succomb to the pressures of those who I thought were my friends but have proven otherwise.

Oh yeah, and I am going to pray a lot. :)

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-B